Dear tumblr,
My life sucks so much lately.
Today in psychology I shared with my entire class that my mom has Alzheimer’s. I can’t tell you how many feelings I felt at once and how embarrassing and nerve wrecking it was. I was SO nervous when everybody looked at me and I didn’t like it. But I knew I would have to say something about it eventually since this class is all about the brain. I don’t know what to think of it.
(Source: staypozitive)
Everything Is Changing.
My whole life is changing around me. My mom is getting worse, week by week. It’s to the point where I can actually see the change. She refuses to walk downstairs. So, my Dad is turning my dining room into a bedroom for him and my mom. My house isn’t that big to begin with, and we have my two cousins living with us. That makes six of us, in a house that was built for four. My anxiety lately is through the roof because my house is never clean, I work so much, and nothing ever gets done. My cousins (shes 26 by the way) doesn’t clean for shit. There’s crumbs everywhere, she leaves all the food open, and she leaves 2234234 cups everywhere. If she’s gonna live here and spend 24/5 here, then you should start learning how to clean. She does dishes and laundry, that’s it. Then my dad comes home and tells me to clean the house. I don’t have any time. My weekends are filled with work, I work once during the week, then the other 3 days I have to myself are doing homework and catching up on the sleep I don’t get anymore. So, I’m full of anxiety, and I’m not myself anymore. The one time a week I’m happy is when I’m with my boyfriend. That’s all. Atleast it’s my birthday in 2 days 1 hour and 13 minutes. Then I can get my license, and leave whenever I get upset. Ugh </3
(Source: shot-at-redemption)
